Down in my soul....
In my darkest hours Im feeling lost and alone....I look around,I see myself in a mirror,my face is so pale,my skin is so cold.I try to remember the things that used to be great,Icant remember anything. I stay still for a moment and listen,I dont hear anything,I dont here the cars passing by,the little children laughing and playing at the park,nothing. I open my bedroom door,everything in the house looks so forgotten. I look up and see a window,outside the sky is white all over. I walk over to the stairs,look down,I can see the front door. I start going slowly down the stairs,touching the banister with the tips of my fingers,its so dusty I leave marks on it along the way. Im downstairs,looking over to the front door,I walk to it. I open it,the cold wind touches my face,I can feel the tip of my nose start to get even colder than it was before. I step outside onto the street look up,not even a bird,so I start walking....I look around,a sudden flash of memory goes through my mind,I remember this street on christmas,where you could hear laughs of happiness coming from inside the houses that now are either abandoned or fallen to pieces. I keep walking,now with my arms crossed as if trying to keep warm. I stop in the middle of the street,I look at my hands,so white and cold,I see the tips of my fingers are starting to look purple,its so cold it hurts to make a fist,so I put them inside my pockets. I hear a little thunder,I look up to the sky,now I see a dark cloud coming in,a small raindrop comes out of nowhere and lands right on my forehead,I look down,the raindrop runs across my face towards my chin and onto the floor. ''Its gonna rain again'',I think to myself,''Cold,hard....rain''. I keep walking and come out to what I start to remember,used to be a very busy street,full of cars and people. I look up and down before I cross it,as if waiting for a car to appear any time soon,but I dont see anything but newspaper being sweped away by the wind. So,I start walking down the abandoned street....Ive been walking for what seems to be ten minutes now,I stop and look at everything around me,then I remember that my best friend used to live close by. I see another street to my right and start walking over to it. I come out to a park,a park which I remember used to be full of people,dogs,and children playing in the playground. I walk to the middle of the park,now like everything else,its abandoned. I look to my left and see my best friend's house. I run to it. I get to the front gate and stop to catch my breath,I grab the metal gate,strangely it feels a little warm against my cold hands. I put my head against the metal bars of the gate,they also feel a little warm against my forehead. I look over to the front door of the house,a tear runs down my face,then another one,followed by a few more,I call her name,my voice cuts in the middle of it,so I call her name again even louder as if waiting for someone to come out.... I fall to my knees and bury my face in my hands,sobbing effortlessly. Then all of a sudden the front door opens,I get up and step back a little frighten,I stare at the open door,then I see her,standing there,looking at me,she starts walking over to the gate,with keys on her hand and opens it. She looks at me,stares so deeply into my eyes and tears start running down her face,then she throws her arms around my neck. Im confused,but I hug her back and close my eyes for what felt like a second,I get this weird feeling all over my body,as if she were passing something onto me,then I open my eyes and she lets go of me. She looks at my eyes,grabs my hand and says,''Everythings ok now''....Then I look around,everything starts to change,everything starts going back to normal,people start to appear out of thin air,the dogs in the park,the children in the playground,cars in the streets,birds in the sky,everything. I look at her confused and she just smiles at me. I look back at everything and then all of a sudden it vanishes.... I wake up,Im laying in a hospital bed,I look to my right and see my best friend again,holding my hand,''Everythings ok now'' she says to me,I look to my left and see all of my family and the rest of my friends,everyone smiling at me with tears in their eyes,I try to sit up,but my body feels so heavy,so my brother helps me sit,then I see a doctor rush into the room,looking at me with a face of amazement. Everyone left the room except my best friend,who kept holding my hand and the doctor,he grabed a chair and sat right next to me,I asked,''What happened??''....Thirty minutes later I found out I was in a car accident and had been in a coma for almost a year now,the doctor told me every doctor in the hospital,also himself,had given up hope on me and that he had told my family and friends that I would never come back,''But,I guess I was wrong'' he said to me now. A week later the doctor told me I could go home. My sister brought me some clothes to leave the hospital. They gave me some time on my own to get changed,I took off the hospital gown,then put on my normal clothes,I look at myself in the mirror,my face doesnt look pale anymore,I can see color on my now warm face. I step out of the hospital room and eveyones was waiting for me,they stare at me with tears in their eyes again,and big smiles of joy. My mother walks over to me,grabs my hand and says,''Lets go home''. We start walking outside the hospital,pass a big hall and the waiting room,out to the parking lot. Its 7a.m.,the day was perfect,blue skies,only a few very white clouds,the sun perfect. I stop in the middle on the parking lot and look up to the sky,everyone stops with me,my best friend stands beside me and asks,"What is it??",I look back at her,grab her hand and say,''Today,its gonna be a new day"....
